Well, I graduated the other day. It was a long, emotional day and I am still incredibly emotional. I was nervous all day. I was scared of tripping, embarrassing myself, but I was also afraid of leaving, of saying goodbye to those kids that I grew up with.
When I first stepped into the hallways of my high school, I had no idea what was going on. I didn't know where I was going, I was nervous every time I had to go into the hallways, and I only knew about 50% of the people. It was terrifying. Little did I know that it would life changing, however.
High school was the best four years of my entire life. I can honestly say that. I cannot explain what a whirlwind these four years have been. They have been dramatic, stressful, exciting and, most importantly, fun.
I have learned so much. I have learned about myself, about soccer, about friendships, about everything. It's amazing to see how I've changed because I'm honestly no where near the person I was four years ago. People have changed me, experiences have changed me, and so much more.
I made new friends, lost some friends that I thought I would always have, got a job, and all together just grew up. I couldn't imagine a better high school career than what I had. I played three great years of soccer, despite them being crazy and kind of Hell-filled. Like I said, I learned so much about everything, and my life changed. It's been great. It's been fun.
Graduation day was overwhelming and gone in a flash. I went to practice, got my hair done, and then there was the ceremony. I almost threw up right before. But I was okay. I almost peed my pants during the ceremony, too. Afterward, we all hung around and talked, hugged, took pictures and said goodbye. It was sad, but none of us were really thinking about that. We were all just excited. I looked around and realized that I would never see some of those kids again. I grew up with those kids. I've known some of them since kindergarten, but I will more than likely never see them again.
Later that night, I went to my best friend's graduation party. It was really fun. There were a lot of people and a lot of stuff to do. However, it was the end of it that was hard. I went inside of her house to say goodbye to her, and she hugged me and said, "See you at Olivet. Maybe sooner." I appreciated her acknowledging the fact that we're going to the same school, but it made me sad that I knew I probably wouldn't really see her over the summer.
We've never normally seen each other over the summers. Our friendship doesn't exactly including hanging out with each other. And, despite the fact that we are going to the same college next year, it was the hardest for me to say goodbye to her.
She has been the most important friend to me all through high school. She changed my life, she showed me things I never would have otherwise seen. She has been the best friend ever and I have been telling her that a lot lately. It was always something ongoing at school. We saw each other almost every day and always got to talk. I always knew that I'd get to talk to her. It was kind of a comfort. She was my person to fall back on. But now...it's all going to change. It's like abruptly ending. There was no drama for us this year. We didn't fight at all. We got along so well. And now it's all just over. I'm scared that it may never come back.
For the past four years, everything has, for the most part, remained the same with our friendship. Our friendship has always consisted of God and of spending a small bit of time with each other. But this summer, and next year, things may change. Things may never be as good as they are now and that scares me. Because her and I have worked, and we have worked so had and that may go to waste. I'm so afraid.
But I guess college will be a new challenge...
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